4 more days!....
Later, gonna make a trip to his house to visit his family and pass some of the things I bought from genting. Thought of driving there, but he doesn't allow me to do so because he worries on my safely. Afterall, I'm still a beginner.
Have to take mrt there instead.
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While I'm on my way to his house, I feel so emo. He used to fetch me from the bus stop and now he is not. Walking on the familiar path to his house, make me feel so sad, because right now, I have to walk it alone. Whenever I go his house, I hardly sit down and have nice conversation with his mother. Cause, I always have to accompany him. Today, chat alot with his mum and also his dad. Happy conversation with her. Spend 2 hours there. B, you die haha. When I reached the stage whereby I am very close with your mum, you better becareful. I can intrude your house anytime :)
While I'm on my way back home, I keep smiling to myself because I am happy of the performance I did today. Home sweet home at 4 something. He keep calling me to ask me how is the things going on in his house?
Mum so sudden, asked me to drive to his house to pass his family durians. I keep rejecting because I know he don't want me to drive. Heard from him that his mum loves durian. No choice, I broke the rule, and drive in order to be filial to his mum.
Told him just now on phone, 'I am prepared to get scolding'. Luckily, he didn't blame me.
I thought it was suppose to be a happy day for me today. In the end, I cry alot just now. Wet phone, wet pillows, wet face. Probably due to some of the stress, mentally tired and the negative thoughts. Seriously, I hate the pessimistic me. Always make me think of this and that when I know it will never happen. I am tired of thinking already. Really.
I am tired now. Don't wanna study anymore. Wanna go sleep instead.
Signing off,
GF
PS: Only you.
